Sunday, October 16, 2011

New Respect- Day something

I have a new found respect for marathoners who train while they work full time. 
The last thing I wanted to do yesterday after working 8-530 was to go running. I wanted to eat dinner and I wanted to not move from the couch. Then I WTFU and ran. I had a 35 minute “zone 4” run, and I did a 5 minute warm up and 5 minute cool down, so I ran 5.5 miles in 45 minutes! wooo! 
Yesterday during a meeting at work our managing director used an awesome quote that I will share with you now…
There’s no growth in the comfort zone and no comfort in the growth zone”
Ain’t it the truth. Baked my bestie Brit homemade cookies because she’s sick and we watched midnight madness. Super secret business this morning, then cross training day, family party, and hanging with my friend amanda tonight! Let’s get TO IT! 
Rizzo is gangster.
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Today's run is a 60 minute zone 3 run.... I will be doing it this afternoon after the GIANTS / bills TAILGATE!!!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Merr

I've been trying really hard to remain positive lately. I really don't mean to be a "debbie downer" or anything like that, but sometimes life gets you down and you forget all the great things that are happening and focus on the negative.

For example: Facebook sucks. I am notified daily about how my college soccer team is doing, how they are all having a great time, and how I can not play. Another reason why facebook sucks, I keep getting asked by people to play on their indoor teams. This sucks. I really really really want to play. So I get bummed out that I can't play and then I remember "oh wait it's not just this year you can't play YOU CAN NEVER PLAY AGAIN". Brain injury+ broken skull that isn't healing = more likely to get more broken skulls and brain injury. Sucks. No pick up basketball, no indoor soccer, no football <-- wait I only ever played once a year on thanksgiving... but still I can't play anymore :/

Reason number two I am bumming: Another person in my family has cancer. And I'm not even sure if I'm allowed to write that- because I don't know if it's "public" knowledge yet, but it sucks. I mean obviously it sucks, but it sucks even more because it just reminds me of losing Russ and Aunt Cindy. And then it reminds me of how my entire families lives have been changed and effected by this.

So then I kick myself in the butt and tell myself to suck it up and focus on the positives out of all of this.


  1. Even though I can no longer play contact/team sports this does not mean I am done with sports. I am grateful for my obsession with running which started a year ago, because if I didn't have that, I would be lost. With that being said, I can now focus on trying to become a better runner and eventually start doing triathlons and all sorts of good things from there!! New goal: Be a pro runner...
  2. Even though cancer is impacting my family in a negative way it is also giving me a chance to appreciate my family and the little things more. I used to be a stuck up brat and would book my days full of hanging out with friends and spent as little time as possible with my family. Now I make them a priority and love every second of hanging out with them. 
There are definitely more reasons for me to be grateful for and way more positives in my life than I can think of right now, but I can't let little things get me down. 

To make this more aesthetically pleasing:



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Onto the training part...  



Sometimes I forget I go to college.... I had class today at 2pm and I had to leave at 11am in order to get back to Potsdam in time. This being said.... I had to run this morning... Today on the schedule was another "threshold day". Probably so I can find the most accurate heart rate. And well it's a dang good thing I did it again because I stupidly didn't do it right the first time... therefore my "steady eddy" run now makes more sense why I bumped it up.  Anyways- Only did a 3 mile run today, last threshold I did 4 but that was because I 'climbed" back down because I wanted more of a work out. So anyways- did the 3 then finished up on the elliptical at the gym for another 30 then had to quickly get on the road.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Another xt day!

My morning started like this : 

I got my (hopefully) LAST CT SCAN!! YAYYYY!  I had to take a picture of this because when i filled it out i was in serious shock over the words "CT brain" like it still shocks me how serious this ish was/is! Multiple ppl at the imaging place were asking all about the accident one woman told me i should have drank more milk as a child... THANKS LADY haha


And I immediately got it on CD so I can bring it to my surgeon! yahhh boiii!

Sorry blurred things out...#stayawaycreeps
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Some nicknames that have come from this whole brain injury business...
CT (because it is also my initials...ppl are so witty)
and
TBI (traumatic brain injury) bahah also whenever I do something dumb my friends/family just say "TBI...." 

^^Funny side story- yesterday I got lost on my way to get my ct scan, walked into the first hospital to get it and they said it wasnt there today and gave me directions to a dif building (um my tbi kicked in... ) and I couldnt remember any of the directions. So i just guessed...went to another wrong building...they gave me even more confusing directions...got lost again... called and rescheduled for today... bahah
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Then I went to GOLDS GYM!!! Yayy new gym! It was great- its massive and totally commercialized and I felt like a celeb. I'm planning on going to make it to some classes this week on my "cross training" days. OH AND THEY HAVE A POOL SO I HAVE NO EXCUSES NOW!!!!


After lunch I was bored and it was super nice out so I took my dog for a walk at the state park near by! Look at that foliage gotta love upstate ny fall!!


She's so stinkin' cute :) 


Attempt at being artsy....


Now we're pooped!!

I plan on going to bed by at latest 10:30 tonight... I am beyond exhausted and my legs are so sore!! I started my lunges/squats again daily and boy am I feeling it. BUT IM DIGGIN IT!

Monday, October 10, 2011

Stead Eddy- Day 3!

Tonight's run at first was some what mentally hard. It was called a "Steady Eddy". It was a 45 minute run at Zone 3 pace, which means I run keeping my heart rate in between 142-156. But I didn't do that, I felt WAY too slow at that heart rate so I kept it between 165-173. I am glad Wednesday's run is another threshold test because I think it will give me a more accurate read at what I can really push myself too.  I had to keep in mind multiple times during this run that it was meant to be nice and easy. It was about building endurance NOT killing myself with speed. I'll get to that more in phase 2 and 3 ;) 


So 5.3 miles in 45 minutes. Then I did my squat/lunge/push up/ab work out. 4x25.


Now I'm watching 

True life the Kardashian's are all time favorite people. 


Oh in other news!!!

HOPEFULLY TOMORROW MORNING WILL BE MY LAST CT SCAN EVER!!!!!! So please please please cross your fingers for good results!!!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Day 2 Betch

Sooo this whole training program is going to be interesting because it's the first time I won't be running everyday. It is pretty much running 4 or 5 days a week, so as much as I love running, I kind of like it because it is helping me realize I don't need to run everyday (sometimes I get too obsessed...as we know).

This all being said, today was a CROSS TRAINING DAY! Woo... so I went over to my good ol' Jewish Community Center and hung out with all my friends ;) ...actually it was just Dolph Shayes and I!!

(That's Dolph Shayes..he used to play for the Nats)

Elliptical+ Upper Body Lifting day = Happy Caitlin 

As much as I love the JCC though, I'm starting to look for other gym around here that I want to start going too... I need classes and a pool in order for me to get to where I want to be! The jcc just is not up to date enough!

As usual, today was GANNONS DAY! Had a small almond bark ;) NOOOOM And saw this sign... it's really funny yet entirely true... I'm thinkin about it... but really the winter should be my time when I forget about ice cream....They shouldn't tempt me like this.


As for the rest of the day, I JUST CHILLED OUT. And didn't drive anywhere YUESSSS




Saturday, October 8, 2011

OFFICIALLY DAY ONE!


Today marked the first day of training for the Disney Marathon!! 




For my training this time around I'm following something much more structured. Last time I just did a "run x amount of miles per week and have x amount be the long run". I really don't think this was my best game plan because I definitely got burnt out and I remember having multiple injuries come marathon day and just pushed through them. 


Also, with this book Be a Better Runner, the idea of each run is to get better overall. No run is just to "run" they all have a purpose. The training program is split into 3 phases over 12 weeks (I'm starting it a week early just because I'm getting anxious to start). The first phase is focusing on building overall endurance and stamina. The second phase is about building strength through hill work outs and long runs. The third phase focuses on preparing speed work and quality of runs. I'm super excited. Each run's effort is based off a threshold and heart rate. This leads to no more "black hole" runs, meaning runs that just tired you out and actually hurt you in the long run (no pun intended). 


So as for today's day 1 training I was to figure out my threshold and heart rate zones. Meaning at what speed can I run to maintaing a certain heart rate. So overall I ended up running for 40 minutes, this included a warm up/cool down and the progression to find the thresholds! So 4 miles in 40 minutes. Felt like some quality stuff right there ;)


After the run I did Hope Solo's 15 minute body Nike Training Club work out. I love those things. 
Followed it all up with a protein shake (aka 1/2 skim milk, 1/2 water, 1 scoop protein powder). And some marinated wegmans chicken with a veggielite souffle and a banana! Good stuff. 



Um did I mention my most recent obsession with Lauren Fleshman? Oh yeah- I want to be here. She's 30 and a racing champ. This gives me such hopes. What I would kill to be a pro- I'll get there gotta stay focused AHHH. Also- side note, I was on Lauren's blog/website today and noticed she said anyone who send their copy of Runner's World (w her on it) she will sign and send back to you!!! Soooo I went out to buy another copy because mine was all beat up.... Talk about my new idol. 


Side note- Went to visit my best friends at SUNY Cortland last night... This was my "I'm a grandma and it's 1030 therefore I'm ready for bed not going to the bar" face. 


The National Cancer Institute estimates that approximately 11.7 million Americans with a history of cancer were alive in January 2007. Some of these individuals were cancer­free, while others still had evidence of cancer and may have been undergoing treatment. By fundraising for the American Cancer Society, I am helping raise awareness of cancer so that all of our families can enjoy a cancer-free future. Every bit helps, so thank you in advance for any support you can provide.
Dedicate your donation to a friend, family member or someone you know that has beat cancer, or has been a victim of it. Please let me know their initials and I will add them to my race shirt and run in honor of them. 
http://main.acsevents.org/goto/caitlintitus 





Sunday, October 2, 2011

5k FUN

Okay- So I wanted to write a post today so I could mark this in the training books. This morning I ran the Festival of Races 5k in 24:10, it felt really good considering it was my 2nd run outside and I was holding an under 8 min pace! 


I originally was thinking about doing the Syracuse 1/2 marathon on the 16th, but after today's run outside it made me realize I need to run outside more, but sadly it's hard with the noggin right now. I'm thinking about going to neighborhoods near by to run, therefore its loops and many people around incase I pass out or something... 


That being said I'm trying to figure out if I want to start my marathon training early and say buhbye to the half marathon and focus on training. Not sure what I'll do I'll think about it for another week I suppose. 


Hope everyone had a good weekend!!

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Gym de Titus

It has been a crazy week with traveling back to school, classes, my service project and trying to fit in working out. When I'm at school I take advantage of the Arc Trainer, which is essentially a pimped out ellitpical. It gives you more range of motion, better resistance and seriously it gets your heart rate up more so overall I get a better cardio work out from it. Tuesday I just did arc trainer and nike abs, then Wednesday I ran 2 miles around the field house- worst decision ever. It's the worlds tiniest track and made for thee most boring run ever when you forget your garmin so you have to count laps to know what mile you're on... awful...hence why I stopped at 20 laps and went to my best friend the arc trainer. 




Today however thought I knew I'd be home so I could run. I originally wanted to run outside, because I knew the jcc would be closed for rosh hashanah buuuut of course when I was driving home it started down pouring and I'm a wimp and didn't want to run in the rain...BUT THEN I REMEMBERED OUR SUPER SWEET GYM-LIKE BASEMENT!!







So I did 6 miles in 49 minutes on this bad boy while watching my favorite movie!! <--- MIRACLE!!


The legs feed the wolf, gentlemen! 


Now if you haven't go like Jim on facebook!!
or 
DONATE!


annnnd


GO TELL EVERYONE YOU KNOW!! 
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Plan for the week/weekend:


Friday: Rest (mainly because I have to work all day, the gyms closed, and it's an off day from running and I haven't taken a rest day in a while)
Saturday: 10 miles <-- WOOHOO
Sunday: Festival of Races 5k and then the 3k Fun run with my dad's class! 

Monday, September 26, 2011

Happy 4 month to my broken skull!

Tomorrow will mark exactly 4 months that I have had a headache and 4 months that my skull has been broken. Craziness. Seriously the past 4 months have been the most ridic things ever. 


This weekend I was going to do a long run again, but brain things and head aches made me take Sunday off and instead I biked to the high school, did a 2 mile track/speed work out and then biked home...all I can say is holy hills... Seriously... when lee ann womack said "Never fear those mountains in the distance, never settle for the path of least resistance"...she clearly had never done hill work outs....



As for the weekend, Kyle came home! and he's been running!! And I found a note on the kitchen table from my father saying "Sit down before you read this- I went for a RUN. Went south" <-- I love my family and my peer pressure for them to love running as much as I do :D muaha




Kyle being a creep while we're at the Dark Horse...

Today after work I decided I was going to hit up the JCC and see how far I could run before my headache got too much for me, hence why I couldn't run outside today :/ 

Anyways- I did 6 miles at an 8 min pace which is MUCHO improving. I am glad I am finally improving it is a big confidence booster! Hopefully by Jan I will be back to my old self!! Also I did nike training club abs again...seriously want to vom the whole time and my abs feel like steel after... but they don't look it yet...


Pic on the left is the new shirt pre work out... right is post work out... I am a disgustingly sweat beast and I can't deny it 


In 2011, about 571,950 Americans are expected to die of cancer, more than 1,500 people a day. Cancer is the second most com­mon cause of death in the US, exceeded only by heart disease. In the US, cancer accounts for nearly 1 of every 4 deaths. By fundraising for the American Cancer Society, I am helping raise awareness of cancer so that all of our families can enjoy a cancer-free future! 

Every bit helps, so thank you in advance for any support you can provide. Please let others know about this opportunity and encourage them to participate or make a donation too. All contributions are tax deductible and will support the lifesaving research, education, advocacy, and patient service programs of the American Cancer Society. 
Also, if you would like to dedicate your donation to specific cancer survivors or victims please let me know their initials and I will add them to my race shirt. 
http://main.acsevents.org/goto/caitlintitus 



If money is a trouble for you right now there is an easier way to help! 

My triathlon friend Jim Wilkes has encouraged one of his sponsors to help my fundraising efforts; however I need your help. During the next two weeks for every like on Jim’s Fan Page, his sponsor will make a donation in my efforts to raise money for the American Cancer Society. Go to his page hit like and tell everyone you know to do it as well!!!!!!!!
ps. Jim is insanely inspirational so it’s worth your time to check out his story!! https://www.facebook.com/pages/Jim-Wilkes/101175126630575

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

DO LIFE


First and foremost....
My triathlon friend Jim Wilkes has encouraged one of his sponsors to help my fundraising efforts; however I need your help. During the next two weeks for every like on Jim’s Fan Page, his sponsor will make a donation in my efforts to raise money for the American Cancer Society. Go to his page hit like and tell everyone you know to do it as well!!!!!!!!
ps. Jim is insanely inspirational so it's worth your time to check out his story!!



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At church on Sunday there was a line from Matthew 20 the parable of the workers in the vineyard, that really stuck with me. It is about these workers who all get paid the same, the ones who worked all day and even the ones who only worked 1 hour at the end of the day. 


What if I wish to give this last one the same as you?
Or am I not free to do as I wish with my own money?
Are you envious because I am generous?'
Thus, the last will be first, and the first will be last."

Matthew 20.14-16


At first when I heard this I too thought, "well that isn't fair". But why isn't it fair? For one to distribute such things to others is ones own right. Envy and jealousy are terrible things and it is definitely I am trying to get better at.


For example, I envy runners who are faster than me, despite how much harder they have worked for it, I am jealous of women who appear to be "naturally thin", when really they have healthy habits and work hard for their body. From the outside anyone can assume anything. I may walk by an overweight man in the store and think "Wow he's big, he should drop some lbs", but in reality that man could already be down 100+ pounds. Someone may see me wandering around the parking lot in search of my car and think "oh she's so dumb" but in reality I honestly can't remember where it is... Strangers don't know your past, and they certainly don't know your future. So don't sit around and envy the "naturally thin" or the "boston qualifier" because in reality they have most likely worked for where there are today, no one is naturally gifted we are all given the same thing, and that is to try and not be afraid to fail.








As for training today, 
I cross trained on the Arc Trainer for an hour and then did Nike Training Club ab's...dayum they are killer but I'm already feeling better with them and the first couple times... meaning I don't feel like I'm going to puke and die now....






ps. Ben from Do Life, posted this once, sooo go do life..or something!!





Monday, September 19, 2011

I have a "good" face on for how I feel about this run. I'm trying to look on the bright side. I woke up this morning with plans of this run at 530 before work. But (if uve read my other blog) I've been having this weird thing where my arm falls asleep and goes numb and my ribs get tingley lately. At first i thought I pinched a nerve but this morning my arm was completely useless and I really didnt know what do to. I just said fudge it and went back to sleep and called my dr when I got up to go to work. 

Anyways, they aren't worried and don't think it has anything to do with my brain so that cleared my nerves and I went and did this run after work at around 630. It was so nice out and it was at sunset on the lake so it was really pretty

View on the run at Green Lakes

This was a slow run i'll admit that. Not only was it my first run outside since ummm mid June before the accident, but it was my 2nd "long" run post injury. Mentally it felt really good except for the fact that I'm almost an entire minute slower and about 20lbs heavier than I was last year at this time. But it is what it is and I have to progress from here so that's that. 

Another long run in the books! I'm right on track for the Syracuse Half Oct 16th! 10 mile run planned for next Sunday! annnnd

REST DAY TOMORROW WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!


An estimated 39,970 breast cancer deaths are expected in 2011. Breast cancer is the 2nd cause of cancer death in women. By fundraising for the American Cancer Society, I am helping raise awareness of cancer so that all of our friends and families can enjoy a cancer-free life.


Dedicate your donation to a friend, family member or someone you know that has beat cancer, or has been a victim of it. Please let me know their initials and I will add them to my race shirt and run in honor of them. 



http://main.acsevents.org/goto/caitlintitus 

Friday, September 16, 2011

Da bomb dot com

The National Cancer Institute estimates that approximately 11.7 million Americans with a history of cancer were alive in January 2007. Some of these individuals were cancer­free, while others still had evidence of cancer and may have been undergoing treatment. By fundraising for the American Cancer Society, I am helping raise awareness of cancer so that all of our families can enjoy a cancer-free future. Every bit helps, so thank you in advance for any support you can provide.


Dedicate your donation to a friend, family member or someone you know that has beat cancer, or has been a victim of it. Please let me know their initials and I will add them to my race shirt and run in honor of them.
http://main.acsevents.org/goto/caitlintitus



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The past couple days my training has been pretty light still. I ran a solid 5 mile yesterday with no increased head aches afterwards which was DA BOMB


Last night I thought that I wasn't going to have time to work out today after work, so I decided that I was going to wake up at 6am and go for a morning bike ride. 6am comes fast when you go to bed after midnight...but I still got up and did my chilly ride. And then luckily I was able to run after work! A quick 5k to keep the legs loose. 




This past week was really hard for me with the whole "you can never play contact sports again" thing. My whole life was sports. Since kindergarten I had played soccer and from 7th grade on every season I was playing soccer, basketball and softball. The fact that I am never allowed to play those- even recreational drives me nuts. It doesn't help when all the girls on my (old) soccer team keep updating their status or posting pics of their games and what not. Le sigh. Here's an old pic to keep the nostalgia going...


But then I remember that over the past 2 years I have fallen in love <-- corny but true, with running. I am addicted to it and it truly frees me and is the most challenging thing I've ever done. Nothing is better than getting lost in your own thoughts on a run. So despite the set back and the whole sports getting taken away from me, I need to remember that I am now just entering a new chapter of my life...with many new exciting endurance events. 

Some half marathons, TOUGH MUDDER, Disney marathon and eventually (please oh please oh please) Boston and some tri's!! I have many exciting things awaiting me and I am so happy to get going on it!!


Have a great weekend everyone!!

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Weekend Excitement:

  • Tennis
  • Fall Fest
  • Long RUN SUNDAY
  • Sunday is the Syracuse Ironman!! <-- Being a #1 fan! 


Thursday, September 15, 2011

yadda yadda yadda

I'm sorry if you've come to this blog to hear really awesome things right now- haha because as of right now official marathon training doesn't start til mid October. Right now my game plan is to build my miles and weekly miles to half marathon distance and then keep it at that until marathon training begins. This is for two reasons:


1- I don't want to get hurt  
2- I want to build endurance prior to so I can incorporate speed work in 


becaaaaaaauuuse then I will be speedy...because we all know the ultimate goal right now is to win Boston...


....I mean my goal is to boston qualify....




At my first marathon I missed it by 4 minutes and the whole race I was on track for it. Up until mile 22 when some water station mishap (went down the wrong pipe...lead to abs cramping...led to just trying to breathe and run...slower pace led me to feel the leg pain, picked up the pace but still missed it by 5 minutes, 3 hours 49minutes...so close yet so far). 


So despite missing it I really would like qualify within the next year. If I don't in January, not a HUGE deal because I've had a lot of unfortunate circumstances and I'm just grateful to be able to run right now and I really don't want to push my limits considering I have brain issues now haha. 


Some day...




Back to the "training", I originally wanted to do some sort of run, maybe a 5k or 4 miles but the blood blister that is still on my pinky toe didn't agree. I did 1.6miles on thedreadmill, and then said fudge it and did the arc trainer for 40 minutes, followed by a Nike Training Club "Butt Burner" work out.








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Side note! This past Sunday, a good friend of mine Jim Wilkes, completed the Rev3 Triathlon. Jim is an army wounded warrior who completed each major distance in regards to running and triathlon. He started his journey on Memorial Day 2011 and ended on September 11th, 2011. He has an amazing story and is an inspiration to all so go to his website to read more about him. 








Also! Don't forget to go DONATE :) 

First long run post accident!!

If you know me- which you probably do, which is why you're here...then you know that I recently had that  accident with a certain softball jerk and it left me with the skull fracture and a slight brain injury. This being said I was told to basically be a couch potato for a couple months. I've been going to PT (yeah- weird PT for your head...) and they had cleared me to run. This being said I was THRILLED. However, this was also extremely frustrating because my endurance was way down when I started to run again. 5 miles which used to be easy as pie was now a struggle and my pace is slower by 30ish seconds. As with everything else that is going on with my life I learned I had to deal. I slowly have been building my weekly mileage and beginning to have "long runs" on Sunday's again in order to prepare for the marathon (even though I don't "officially" start training til Oct). 


Don't worry I was super nerdy and wore my compression sleeves to bed in order to prep for this run...


Today I did my first long run of 8 miles! I haven't ran that far since before the accident so this was extremely exciting! What was even better was it didn't feel like a struggle and I kept my pace around an 8 minute mile. I even got new shoes last night because my old ones were on about 700 miles... yikes... Stupidly though I was way too excited about the shoes and wore them today... uhh yah I've got two blood blisters on my baby toes that are killer. (I'll spare you the picture....but I did take one, but my dad said it'd be super grimey if I posted it)


Sweet new kicks...




Besides the run being awesome my headache also did not get worst through out the run- which is a huge plus- and it's been about an hour since I stopped running and my headache is at the same "number". 


Ridiculously sweaty mess after that 8




Running quote of the day- 


Conquering any difficulty always gives one a secret joy, for it means pushing back a boundary line and adding to one's liberty. 
-- Henri Frederic Amiel, swiss philosopher